I’m learning a lot about myself lately. I don’t know if it’s the pregnancy or what, but I’m coming to terms with some facets of my personality, parts of my emotional IQ, that I didn’t realize needed tending to. I experienced the latest light bulb moment while watching one of the many design shows on HGTV that I like: Dear Genevieve.

Who knew that Genevieve Gorder could be so soul transformative, right?

Anywho, I’m sitting there watching this episode that features a couple with a small child. They’re in their late 30′s, and they’ve already renovated most of their home. But the kitchen was the last space, and being the most expensive to revamp, they allowed someone else to come in and take over. Key word in that last sentence is “allowed”. You see, this couple DID NOT relish handing over creative control to someone else. I don’t think they’re the type of people to relinquish any kind of control, creative or not, in regards to any aspect of their lives. Genevieve was reassuring, but they were REALLY nervous about her renovating their precious kitchen. I kind of grasped from her facial expressions, and just her overall demeanor, that she was getting annoyed with these people. If you really don’t want to bring in someone (an amazing, professional interior designer, with rooms you’ve seen by watching this very program), then don’t do it.

It occurred to me that these people were missing the gift they’d been given. I mean, seriously, I would give my left boob (okay, not the boob because I breastfeed my babies, but you know what I mean) to have someone like Genevieve Gorder come into my home and renovate a room FOR FREE(even though I don’t know if it is actually for free, but that’s another post). And all they did was worry the entire time.When they were interviewed by the producers for the individual segments of the show, they kept coming back to how nervous they were not knowing what was going on, and how they wanted to sneak in and see what she was doing. WHY? YOU’VE SEEN THE SHOW! You know she’s fantastic or you wouldn’t have applied to get onto this show in the first place, right?? Out loud, I said to myself, “Seriously, these people have GENEVIEVE GORDER renovating their kitchen; they SO have nothing to worry about at all! She’s a professional, and she’s amazing. I would be so excited and enjoying every second of that experience”.

That’s when it hit me….

In a voice that was as recognizable and clear as my very own, the Lord said: “Yeah, kind of like you…if you’d just let go, truly let go, trust, and know that I am God and in control of your destiny, everything will be fine. And you will love the end result. Stop worrying about the outcome, and enjoy your life and the beauty within it.”

And since that day a couple of weeks ago, I’ve had a very keen appreciation of just how wonderful my life truly is.